The news of baby #2 is settling deep into my heart, and psyche. I am feeling it's great joy.
The knowledge that I am going to bring another human into the world is so huge. Even though baby is only the size of a raspberry and the weight of a paperclip, I know that baby's personality and habits and character are already forming. With each day that passes, I know there is a big countdown, ticking, down down down the days until our little blob of a baby will arrive and change our lives forever. I like that I have less fear than I did with Rue. There was just so much unknown then. And true, while I don't know how I will handle two babies, I am confident that I will do a great job and I will be a great mama even when I fail.
It's a beautiful season I am in. There is a rest and peace in this time. I am not anxious for number 2 to get here, but rather I am really enjoying my time with Rue.
On a less emotional/ethereal/dreamy note, pre-nesting is kicking in big. Changing around winter/summer/maternity clothes, purging, organizing closets, and cleaning the radiators with a toothbrush. You know, normal stuff. My belly is growing. First trimester sleepiness or rather, fatigue, is biting me hard. But no morning sickness so no complaints here. I am feeling better than I did though- the first 3 weeks were very painful. I didn't know subsequent pregnancies could be so painful and uncomfortable. Thank goodness it's over.
Friday is our first ultrasound. We will get to hear a swoosh-swoosh heartbeat and figure out a due date. I am eager to find out that baby is healthy and growing in the proper place. The pain had me worried it was Ectopic. But I'm sure everything is A-OK.
Thanks for the congratulations and well wishes. We are so excited!
love, Y
